Another heartless weekend had descended upon him and he had only himself for company. Everyone else was busy or at least they wanted it to look busy. He was not one who often found himself lonely but often found himself alone. Unlike the endless pack of laptop rabble that filled the coffee shops in his neighborhood he had no need to look active or engaged.
“He spends much of his time seeking a god that has eluded him or a god that is afraid to face him.”
He has family and friends of course but he is solitary by nature. He gets little energy from people, he finds them exhausting for the most part. He is not anti-social by any means, he can hold a conversation with almost anyone, but given a choice he prefers his own company. He has never looked to others for solace or advice, even as a child he walked for hours on the mashes with his dog for company. Those walks with a good listener shaped his way of dealing with the world.
He spends much of his time seeking a god that has eluded him or a god that is afraid to face him. Finding God is not important to him, the search is where the real value is to be found. Rummaging around looking for something will often turn up the unexpected. While looking for one thing we may find another. While looking for God we may find truth, who knows?
Struggling to find his place on the planet, he has sought his own path without influence from others. This of course is virtually impossible since we are impacted by others even without knowing it. The struggle to maintain individuality is so difficult in a world dominated by social media, television and acquaintances who want you to be more like them in order to validate their own existence.
This is a man who is ridiculed for saving the life of a spider but who has little concern for the future of humanity. He will give money to the derelict on the street without judgement but offers no comfort to those who ask for his prayers, they must go elsewhere.
This man —one of many among us—has imagination and courage and so refuses to be lead to the trough of religious mediocrity.
GSG (God Seeker Guy)